Ceeedric` – There's no 1 else like you

Step Up 3

OMG!!

i so totally wanna learn hiphop sia! my dancing bones deep within is reacting very violently to that movie.

time to do some exercise to warmup my body already! =P

arghhhhhh

i figure if i dun start updating my post, ppl aren’t gonna read my blog anymore!

and some more i’ll be going into army soon. i dun wan my blog to collect dust which is SAD..

but then again whenever something exciting happened to me, by the time i reach home i’ll be all exhausted to write anything up. cept got str for playing games maybe. =P

so ya.. wait till i got motivation to write anything up! stay tune!

Time is running out

Are you gonna be my girl

New age girl

Supermassive Black Hole

Californication

(Y)

Hoot!

Things to splurge on now that i’m working.

1. Palit GTX460 graphic card. (done)

2. 2gb ram. (done)

3. HD monitor

4. Liquid-cooled processing unit.

that’s bout it for my computer.

still wanna zhng my bike also!

I can’t say that what you have written hasn’t hurt my feelings. Not because it’s mainly untrue, it is also doing me a little injustice. I appreciate your thought of taking time off to write such a lengthy post, and I feel that it would be inappropriate if I did not return one back to you, so here goes:

Be it even though you could have said more during that point of time, it is all being let out now I guess? Imagine us arguing and bickering at each other over this last time, think it will turn out worse. Sure, big quarrels and arguments between a couple over small matters are something worth noticing but if you were to realise, this is something inevitable. I get what you are saying: you are afraid of the aftermath, or should I say the consequences of a relationship with no direction? We are not born with the same mind-set. Both partners have to adapt to each other’s “goal” or “achievement” of this whole relationship. Like I said, quarrels and arguments are inevitable. Only with a mature mind-set as well as optimism, then we can always try to avoid or minimize such things in the future.

Like I said, it takes a little optimism; some positive thought to stray your mind away from negative thoughts. I had never been in a commitment all my life, I admit. No matter what i say will not affect your decision. It’s up to your own free will to make anything happen.  I am already in my 20s, and I can hardly call that “young”. The many reasons why couples split and crumble are because they do not know how to keep the relationship lasting, and also there is nothing to keep the relationship fresh and exciting. So what do you regard couples that have been attached for years since their teenage period all the way into their adult life? What is love to them, and the commitment that comes with it?

It is also undeniable that I am enjoying a single life. Your own life is composed by your own choices; in my case I choose to pursue a commitment out of my own will. Do remember, we’ve known each other for years. I never thought of using a partner as a puppet doll; something you use to impress your friends with, something you use to satiate yourself. No. From my own knowledge, a relationship just consists of two people; let’s put it in my perspective, me and you. I take interest of you, and it stays this way, vice versa. I’m not looking to impress, I’m just looking to love and be loved in return.

I may agree with the quote I stated earlier but that does not mean my take for love is shallow. How would you feel if I assumed that you are a pessimistic individual just because you quoted from ‘Seven Habits of Highly Defective Dating.’? Isn’t that backfiring back to your own self? Why not try reading ‘Seven Habits of Highly Effective Dating’ for a change? Everyone is born with different perspective towards different things. From the bible, Matthew 7:1-5 states that ‘Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you. ”Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.’

I’m not trying to preach anything to you, but I just want to enlighten you that assumptions will most likely lead to a much distorted impression. Ever heard of Don’t Judge a Book by its Cover? Also, I want to point out what I have interpreted from the phrase I stated, in case we may have a different frequency in terms of interpretation. From what I understand, it meant ‘From the point of approval of a relationship, a risk of disruption of your daily routines, activities or whatever may occur.’ As you know, a relationship means sacrifice. A portion of your time has to be devoted to your other half and again, you have to risk giving up some things for this relationship. That, in other words, is called opportunity cost. Of course, the outcome is already revealed so there’s not much of a point to say all this, but it’ll be good to let you understand my way of thinking. We may have different beliefs, but there are certain things that you don’t have to be a Christian to understand. Then again, I’m not trying to portray myself as an excellent partner to practically anybody, mainly because of my inexperience in relationships. Your quote from ‘The Shack’ speaks a portion of my mind. You were created to be loved, so for you to live as if you were unloved is a limitation.

“They’ll give you a million reasons why you can’t, but you’ll give them one reason why you can.”

The verse you stated from Second Corinthians is very, I say, controversial? I have to come to terms that, yes I may not be a Christian but I do respect your religion. I wouldn’t elaborate much because it’s quite out of point but; if there’s a will, there’s a way. Also, I understand the portrayal of God being the most dominant in that verse. Sometimes, we have to set our head outside the religious circle and think that, hey, miracles do happen. Life is unpredictable. Even a high-time ex-convict can get married happily to an innocent convent girl. How unlikely can that be?

From your post, i assume your meaning of pre-marital sex is to go around sleeping with other girls. For your information, I did not say that I would “try around”. Why didn’t you ask the second question as well? I guess it is because you already labelled me, that’s why you see no point in asking any further? Without a doubt, I’ll gladly oblige if my partner wishes to engage in sexual activities after marriage. I respect my partner and her beliefs; and if I love her, whom I obviously do, I’m willing to wait. Otherwise, I would have given up long ago. Others might say I’m conservative as well, but I regard sex as something you should only enjoy it with your partner. And it’s not only Christians who think that sex is sacred, there are non-believers who also think like that.

So what am I trying to prove here? I may speak my mind but sometimes actions speak louder than words. I understand that usually first impressions will craft a whole image of a person but I hope that you do not take it too personal as it may not be even true at all. Talk is cheap, actions are louder. How would you feel if you made a hasty assumption and I took your word for it and started labelling you as something you oppose of?

I will not force you to make any decision, thus I’ll leave it to you. It’s good of you being safe than sorry but sometimes if we do not take risks to venture one step further from our comfort zone, we’ll never find out what’s waiting for us out there. If we don’t give our two cents, how can we get change?

“Loving someone means taking the risk that they might fuck up your nicely ordered little life.” – Mark Haddon

3 more months into army. 1 by 1 my frens are all going in.

now i cant wait to go inside. to be away from all these nothingness that i am looking forward to.